THIS IS JIEN. DON'T EXPECT ANYONE ELSE.

SORRY

2010-06-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

this the only thing i can do =)

forget me.

and forgive me when u know what i am thinking.

Message for JIEN =)

2010-04-28T03:15:00.000-07:00

Dahulu kau mencintaiku

Dahulu kau menginginkanku

Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku

Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh

Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku

Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu

Dan kumohon maafkan aku

Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis

Dan biarkan memilih yang lain

Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu

Pasti itu terbaik untukmu

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali

Aku bukanlah untukmu

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya

Untuk diriku Sekarang kau pergi menjauh

Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku

Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu

Dan kumohon maafkan aku

Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis

Dan biarkan memilih yang lain

Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu

Pasti itu terbaik untukmu

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali

Aku bukanlah untukmu

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya Untuk diriku

=)

2010-04-27T10:28:00.000-07:00

everything has over.

i quited.

more challenge will coming soon.

4/27

2010-04-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

20 days ago.

i set a deadline for myself.

i gave myself 20 days.

if after 20 days still nothings change.

i will quit.

today is the day i shud make the choice.

continue. or quit.

i gave her the present today.

i slept on her arm.

i play her hair.

i touch her hand.

i made her dulan.

i made her laugh.

felt the feel of last time we are still together.

aih.

what shud i do?

everyone asking me to give up.

everyone asking me to find another.

seriously she have no reason for me to like her.

but i LOVE her everything.

whatever she say.

whatever she do.

i just LOVE her.

even she scolding me everyday.

staring me every time.

showing shit face to me always.

but im still enjoying it.

people say i stupid.

i say people dunno enjoy. XD

maybe she will say continue like this is better.

what so bad.

why cant?

i will say.

cant lo. haha

i cant feel any confident.

you are not belong to me.

and the wall between us is damn thick and wide.

she has a boyfriend and she love him.

but he is not me.

this the reason i always emo.

i know we will never get back together again anymore.

i wont feel happy like last time anymore.

blaming myself for not treasure the time when we are still together.

aih.

continue or quit.

i dun wanna quit.

i dun wanna continue.

i want her.

hou len diu ahhhh. zzzzzzz

dun cry dun cry dun cry dun cry.

yessss.

tml will be better.

argh!!

cum fuck me.

2010-04-06T09:49:00.000-07:00

now i know the feel of heart pain.

being emo tis few days.
the feel is so so so so sanfu.
ur heart will pump vv strong.
and i can feel every time it pump.
and it begin to pain.
then starting hard to breathe.

until everything is over.

now im in a shit situation.
wan die cant die.
wan live cant live.
thought of letting go.
but i cant.
the poison is too deep.

i cant go further.

she dun wan.

what can i do.

wait?

im gonna lost everything.

crying every single night?

every time finish calling her?

im sick of acting happy.

i cant hide my feeling from you anymore.

i cant be happy anymore.

yeah.

im a sohai.

i admit it.

waiting for something that wont happen.

i really has no more other choice.

give me an answer please.

i dun wan to stay in this situation anymore.

all i did is just shit.

saw a post in fb.

just share.

男生在没有女朋友之前，生病了能捱则捱，实在不行了才去看医生；男生有了女朋友之后，生了丁点的小病都要告诉女朋友，不是男生变得娇贵了，而是因为男生喜欢看见女朋友为他担心的样子和焦急的神态，男生觉得这是一种幸福

男生在没有女朋友之前，吃饭不需要人陪；男生有了女朋友之后，即使女朋友不饿，男生也希望女朋友坐在对面看着自己想小孩一样狼吞虎咽的吃，男生觉得这是一种幸福

男生在没有女朋友之前，再累也不说累；男生有了女朋友之后，即使不累，也说自己累，男生希望女朋友用她那温柔的双手给自己按摩，男生觉得这是一种幸福

男生在没有女朋友之前，都是自己一个人上学放学；男生有了女朋友之后，如果偶尔有一次放学后没有见到女朋友，感到自己很孤独，无所事事

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是嘴上说“爱一个就是爱一个人的缺点”；男生有了女朋友之后，要用实际行动来证明这句话

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是认为女朋友做什么事都应该按照男生的意愿来做；男生有了女朋友之后，明白了女朋友也有自己的圈子，也有自己的生活方式，男生不能够干预

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是认为男生应当一诺千金；男生有了女朋友之后，明白了有时候也需要说一些善意的谎言

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是不理解为何女生喜欢流泪；男生有了女朋友之后，明白了那是因为她最爱的人伤害了她

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是对女生的伤心感到无所适从；男生有了女朋友之后，明白了女朋友在最悲伤的时候只需要男生抱一抱她，让她有依靠的感觉，仅此而已

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是认为女生喜欢浪漫；男生有了女朋友之后，明白了女生真正渴求的最浪漫的事就是和他一起慢慢变老

男生在没有女朋友之前，总是认为自己应当被别人疼；男生有了女朋友之后，学会了疼爱身边的每一个人

男生在没有女朋友之前，过着一个人的假期；男生有了女朋友之后，男生则是过女朋友的假期

男生在没有女朋友之前，过着黑白颠倒的生活；男生有了女朋友之后，生活变得非常有规律

男生在没有女朋友之前，还是一个男生；男生有了女朋友之后，才变成了一个男人

2010 jien

2010-03-08T04:51:00.001-08:00

1、如果发短信息给一个人，他一直不回，不要再发了。没有这么卑微的等待。

2、如果没有人陪，学着一个人听音乐看书写点心情日记。这是个好习惯。

3、如果一个人很难过，找个角落或者在被子里哭一下，不需要别人同情可怜，哭过之后一样开心生活。

4、如果一个人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。不懂珍惜你的人不要为之不舍，更不必继续付出你的友情或爱情，到头来受伤的是自己他人不会为之难过。

5、如果可以不抽烟，别抽。如果可以不喝酒，别喝。这是不爱惜自己身体的表现，如果只因一些人，那么我们别傻了，爱你的人不会让你难过的。

6、伤心的时候找个信任的朋友诉说一下，不要一个人默默承受，这只会会更添寂寞感与忧伤。

7、不开心的时候白天看看蓝天晚上看看夜色，广阔的天空自有属于我们爱，宁可高傲的发霉不要低调的恋爱。跟自己说我是最好的。保持一份自信。

8、宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都不公平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知己不要是恋人。

9、记住你喜欢的人的生日，包括你的家人，当然，还有自己。生日没有人送礼物也无所谓，你可以买精美的礼物，送给妈妈和爸爸。

10、闲下来的时候,放一段柔情音乐，翻阅几页好书，然后睡个懒觉，快哉。心情不好的时候,也可以睡一觉。

11、从现在开始，聪明一点，不要问别人想不想你？爱不爱你？若是要想你或者爱你自然会对你说，但是从你的嘴里说出来，别人会很骄傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，顺其自然以最佳心态面对，因为这世界就是这么不公平往往在最在乎的事物面前我们最没有价值。

13、不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必要，人生不必时时聪明。

14、任何情况下，背后不说他人是非。如果一定要你说，说好话。多个朋友是好事，即使不是很要好的，总比因为自己说话不慎重不思考而多一个敌人好得多。

15、允许偶尔看肥皂剧，但不可成为依赖。允许偶尔披头散发，但要注重场合。允许偶尔骂脏话，但只限在老友面前或者独自一人时，记得说过后要忘掉那些让你难过的事。

16、一定要有几个异性朋友，没有非分之想.就是关键时候,帮你出出主意的好友。

17、学会承受痛苦自己调整心态。有些话，适合烂在心里，有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。当经历过，你成长了，自己知道就好。很多改变，不需要你自己说，别人会看得到。

18、能不和人争吵尽量避免。一个发怒的人是很恐怖的，会因控制不了情绪变成疯子。忍耐然后思索问题的根源最后平静心态解决它。

19、不管和谁有了矛盾和别扭，解决的时间不要超过24小时。否则麻烦会更多。在可以接受的范围内，先道歉。让自己做做坏人不是件真的坏事。

生活可以很复杂以可以很简单，我们不要总是活在忧伤和痛苦之中，爱自己多一点！不为一些不值得的事物而觉得生活总是那么的痛苦无助，人生的方向盘掌握在我们自己手里，有一天阳光大道等着我们走，放开自己，高傲的活着，只要自己幸福开心的，痛苦过去的伤就让他随风而去吧....告诉世界我们属于现在而不是过去

the only one

2010-02-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

YOU are the only one that can

make me excite for whole day, slept only few hours but wont feel tired.

YOU are the only one that can

make me have a bad mood for whole day, or week.

YOU are the only one that can

make me cant sleep for whole night.

YOU are the only one that can

make me sad and emo until i cry.

<3

this few words can use for those boys who want to confess.
hahaha
damn yuk ma right. XD
da lang zhan!!

this is my language

2010-02-09T02:31:00.000-08:00

im not pro in study.
i dun hav pro speaking skill.
or
writing skill.
but at least i cn tell u wat im thinking.
broken english rocks.

i just like to fuck

2010-01-31T09:27:00.000-08:00

FUCK
obviously is a bad word.
it always came out from mouth of those
la la zai ah
lan zai ah
gangster ah.
it just depends hw u use it.
u dun like me to fuck?
so what.
i like to fuck then i fuck la.
nid to see who r u meh.
its just a word to express myself.
no other word cn replace the meaning of the word.
dun like tis post?
fuck off lo.
who the fuck care.

My Story

2010-01-13T09:22:00.000-08:00

泄发完了。
半夜了，听着以前录下的声音。
看着我和她的照片。
我哭了。
睡不着。
起身想写下我和她的故事。
就从我地一次遇见他开始吧。。

我form2年尾的时候，就跟朋友一起去上BM的补习。
一进到去，第一件事当然是找美女啦！
第一眼看到的就是她咯，那时她头发长长，皮肤白白，又几像日本女一下的。
就帮她取名叫“日本妹”啦哈哈！
过后就每次去补习都在后面偷偷KAP他咯。
（还试过偷偷拍她照=p)
KAP 下 KAP 下一年过去了。。。
之后就再也见不到她了。
就这样过了两年。
还以为不会再见到她。
感谢老天，竟然给我在smi drama遇见她！
还是朋友的朋友！
多亏她都认得我，还问我是不是一起补习的。
也没拿到他的电话啦。
就这样半年又过去了。。。
到放假的时候，给我找到他的friendster。
add了他的msn。
那时她还在singapore，只能靠运气在msn他online才能跟她谈天。
不久就跟他要了号码。
几兴奋一下，哈哈哈！
第一次msg她时我在太平做着show。
就很紧张啦，怕死她不会回我这样。
因为msg很贵嘛，我还用017的。
她竟回我喔！
又兴奋了一下！哈哈哈！
就这样开始整天都在msg她咯。
就觉得跟她谈天很爽，不会闷。
一直到开学为止。
记得是一月。
有天他竟跟我讲他有男朋友。
我整个人简则down了。
要死要死。
一开始还以为他开开玩笑骗我的。
后来才知道是真的咧。
更加要死。
我都快要放弃了，不想再找她了。
过后还是没有找她。
有天他跟男朋友吵了个架。
晚上还叫我打给她。
我的心情紧张到爆。
没和女孩打过电话嘛，怕到要命。
还好，不会没话题讲。
谈了半个钟就睡了。
（笑着睡XD)
有了第一次当然有第二次。
时常都打给他。
每次打给他前都会想些笑话逗她笑。
我喜欢她笑，笑得见牙不见眼那种。
（会上瘾的！）
到了二月。
她和男友分手了。
（不是我害的啊！）
我也没有跟她表白啦。
大家也喜欢对方。
也不知几时，就在一起了。
那时想到容易记得，就拿我生日当正式在一起。
3月25日。
我最难忘的生日。
有她陪我在一起，吃蛋糕。
很开心，没试过有女朋友陪过生日。
又几感动一下。
送了我一个亲手做的卡。
（回到家对着卡笑，很傻）
我的父母也没什么反对我们拍拖啦。
（几支持一下！）
她的父母就不同了。
有一次拍拖给她妈妈朋友看到。
大条咯！！
从此都要偷偷摸摸的。
就这样，很难见他面了。
他也为这件事哭了很多次。

我们一开始都很甜蜜蜜的。
但好景不长，开始会有一点吵架了。
半年了。
我们那时都变得冷谈了。
我做了一个卡给她，希望会逗得她开心。
才过了几天，就完了。
那天晚上，我和她都哭了。
（我哭得很惨！！）
电话上，哭了整整一个钟。
最后我们还是用笑容接受这个事实。
和她笑着讲最后一次的电话。
我们就这样，分手了。

形容一下她

他很凶。
还凶过老虎！
他很任性。
想要什么就要什么。
他很小汽。
一点不爽就发脾气。
他很会骂人。
可以一天到晚骂个不停。
她有时很自私。
不理我感受。。。

不过，

她很天真。
很容易开心。
她很爱哭。
哭包来的！
他很爱笑。
她很喜欢笑。
有些小小的东西就会笑个不停。
她很关心我。
就关兴我一个。
她很矮。
这样才可爱！！
她很白。
豆腐这样。
他头发很香。
很好闻。
她很肥。
很好抱！
她。。。
她。。。
ＢＬＡＨ　ＢＬＡＨ　ＢＬＡＨ．

分手后，我都强逼自己忘记你。
去讨厌你。
当我就要忘了你。
你又让我遇见你了。
看回我们的照片。
回想我们的日子。
好想念你。
但都太迟了。
都怪我踏的太深。

悲哀！
现在跟我讲你跟那个男的在一起。
心很痛。
别的人我都可以接受。
但偏偏是他！
为什么？！！！

HAHAHA

2010-01-13T06:46:00.000-08:00

It just like what i expected.
Told you.
And you told me its impossible to happened.
Good.
You all won.
'Nothing wan la.'
Bullshit.
PUI.
At last mai hai gam.
Hahaha.
What to do.
I'm not that smart.
Jien ah Jien.
Satt bai la you.
Nevermind.
I will still look down at you.
Ya.
YOU.
FUCKER.
NAR!

i miss her

2010-01-07T06:01:00.000-08:00

i miss her.
suddenly.
unexpectly.
aih.
= (

changed.

2009-12-07T10:18:00.000-08:00

i chged so much.
so much diffrence between
before n now.
i even asked.
is this me?

bad day

2009-11-22T06:38:00.000-08:00

i was making the video for mun.
suddenly i felt like wanna vomit.
and i relly went vomit after few minutes.
lol.
i tot it will b okay after vomit all the rice i eaten.
after 5 min i went vomit agn == .
then started to stomach ache and nt feeling well.
tot i can finish the video by midnite.
but i din do it coz i vomit non stop.
after i vomit the 6th times.
i call my dad n he brough me to see doctor.
its already 1am and oni cn find a 24 hours clinic in ipoh.
see doctor in midnite is so expensive.
rm50 wo.
the doctor said i got 肠胃炎.
after i back home.
my stomach ache bcum more serious and i cant even std up or walk.
so san fu.
i cant even go up to my room and tell yuki nt to wait me to make the video.
and i cant attend muns bday party.
zzz.
woke up in the morning and i finaly finished the video n sent to yuki.
lucky the video is nt tat big.
so happy after heard mun was cried after watched tat video XD.
thks yuki for pui-ing me in the midnite make tat video and collect those picture and soudclip =D.
thankeww.

6 star toilet

2009-11-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

im so proud to b one of my skul.
SMI.
this skul is so rocks i tell u.
when i was form 2.
they built a 5 star toilet with 1.5 million.
(isit tis price?! i forget d. around tat la hahaha)
the toilet is so great n high class.
it even gt fan inside the toilet so u cn PEE comfortly.
since the toilet is open for us in form 4.
i almost every week will POO inside the toilet.
its even better than my house wan.
n thrs a uncle who incharge cleaning the toilet 24 hours.
everytime u go in the toilet u will see the uncle holding the pipe n shoot water everywher.
i rmb 1 time i POOing in the toilet he go shoot the water frm outside n kena my leg.
WTF lol.
after 2 years the 5 star toilet was built.
they building another toilet bside it agn. =)
the tchr said tis during perhimpunan.
"5 star toilet is nt enough for us! we wan 6 star!!!!"
i was like =.=
n nw they built a brand new 6 star toilet.
with dunno hw many million.
n thrs a rules to use the toilet.
everytime u wan to use the toilet to POO u hav to register urself.
u nid write down ur name , class, and the time u go in to POO n the duration time of ur POO.
then u cn get the key to enter the toilet.
wow.
the aunty will sit infrnt the toilet n record 24 hours.
gud job aunty =) gv her a clap.
i swear i will bomb the toilet with my shit i tell u!
the toilet is oso full with security CCTV and gate and pagar.
thy sked gt ppl steal smi students shit frm toilet i tink. =)
here r sum pic of the 6 star toilet.
im so proud of it man.
GREEN AND WHITE. UNITE!!!

this is the 5 stars wan. its closed for mantainance. ==

A busy day

2009-11-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

tday is so busy.
0_0
im sicked last nite.
got cold i tink.
flu + cough + headache.
woke so early tis morning n went to skul with my laptop.
found jeff thr n started to pratice our dance for the campfire on dec.
we prac so "hard" until whol body is so wet.
MJ dance is difficult =.=
then we went to kopitiam n ate our breakfast.
on the way we saw a dead cat.

its full of ant on the dead body.
yucks.
then went bk skul n dance dance dance.
then went for leo recycling project.
then went the RUBIKS CHAMPIONSHIP 2009 SMI.
kononnya.
its oni for form 1 n form 2 so unfair me n jing cnt join it. zz
went ther n be the REFREE of the competition.
before tat i rubik battled with jing.
he's so pro.
won me so many round. T.T
n i broke my record agn.
23 sec muahahaha.
the form 2 boy cn solve the cube in 43 sec.
nt bad already gv him a clap.
n thanks MR.KHIEW for organise this competition. =)
becoz of him the rubiks cube is so popular in our skul nw.
he even called a news reporter? frm sin chiew paper.
abit too kua zhang lo haha.
so u all mayb will see my face on newspaper.
here are sum pic of the competition.

ORIGAMI made by me

2009-11-11T07:29:00.000-08:00

here are some origami made by me. =)
there r still alot more.
i will post it soon .

THE BLACK WAVE (30mins)

BALL?(2hours)
FLOWERS FOR LOVERS(1hour)
I MADE 2 OF THIS. 1 GAVE HER. (6hours)
DNA(1hours)
I MADE THIS IN SKUL USING TEST PAPER (1hour)
SEJARAH NOTA BALL.LOL(3hours)

1ST BIG ORIGAMI I MADE!!(4 hours)

call me pig

2009-11-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

dunno is it too excited after exam.
i sleep frm 6 pm untill 1.30 am n i woke up.
lol.
tday chat so little with yuki la.
hahaha.
tday weather is just too nice for me to slp.
windy and rainy.
u cant wake up once u slp in tis type of weather.
i feel so cold now although i din on the air cond.
and nt relly feeling well.
flu n sore throat is cuming to me.
going to sick soon i think.
zzz.

yea...i will update my blog soon. =D

2009-11-09T22:15:00.000-08:00

it has been so long ther r no update in my blog.
lazy type laaaaah.
no ppl wan read oso.
since the exam is over.
i will start it agn.
cum n see my blog always people!

fucked up

2009-06-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

got fucked by friend.
got fucked by people.
missed a show.
lost 80 bucks.
used 16 bucks.
its worth to do all these just to
have a walk with you,
see you,
feel you,
touch you,
talk to you,
smile to you.
but what i get at the end.
a message of
sorry.
and also a night of quietness.
i know you have your reason.
just give me some time calm myself down.
aih.
FUCK it.

i dont talk.

2009-05-20T20:23:00.000-07:00

I have alot to do but little to write.
I have alot about me but little to tell u.
I have alot to think but little to talk.
I dont talk much with u unless we have the same hobby or interest.
Dont ever think that im a emo person.
I will give u the finger.
NAR.

peace. haha

dance dance DANCE !!

2008-12-22T11:18:00.000-08:00

hav done 3 performance in 2 days

WAKAKAKAKA

1st performance is in anderson

i saw shen mun ther lol

the stage is so slipery n hotttt

2nd wan is at a kampung in taiping

used almost 2 hours to reach tat kampung =.=

itz a malay kampung n oni kids is watching our show

they asked us to shuffle sumore

so dulan...0_0

3rd show is the best wan

its a golf club in taiping

itz quite classy

took alot funny pic with them while waiting for show

after the 2nd show

BUFFET TIME!!!

i ate 3 lamb chop n sum " ikan bakar" lol

then we go back at 11:30

n reach around 2:00am

then yum cha then go home

then i wrote tis blog xD

michael jien LOL

MONEY

2008-12-20T10:27:00.000-08:00

My dad always says

我爸常说

u CAN'T do EVRYTHING with MONEY

钱不是万能

but

但

u CAN'T do ANYTHING without MONEY

没钱却万万不能

end year holiday 2008

2008-12-20T01:03:00.000-08:00

almost end of skul holidays.

tinking wat i hav done during tis holidays.

hmmmm....

NONE?!!!

omg.

i wasted 2 monthes.