4/27

20 days ago.

i set a deadline for myself.

i gave myself 20 days.

if after 20 days still nothings change.

i will quit.

today is the day i shud make the choice.

continue. or quit.

i gave her the present today.

i slept on her arm.

i play her hair.

i touch her hand.

i made her dulan.

i made her laugh.

felt the feel of last time we are still together.

aih.

what shud i do?

everyone asking me to give up.

everyone asking me to find another.

seriously she have no reason for me to like her.

but i LOVE her everything.

whatever she say.

whatever she do.

i just LOVE her.

even she scolding me everyday.

staring me every time.

showing shit face to me always.

but im still enjoying it.

people say i stupid.

i say people dunno enjoy. XD

maybe she will say continue like this is better.

what so bad.

why cant?

i will say.

cant lo. haha

i cant feel any confident.

you are not belong to me.

and the wall between us is damn thick and wide.

she has a boyfriend and she love him.

but he is not me.

this the reason i always emo.

i know we will never get back together again anymore.

i wont feel happy like last time anymore.

blaming myself for not treasure the time when we are still together.

aih.

continue or quit.

i dun wanna quit.

i dun wanna continue.

i want her.

hou len diu ahhhh. zzzzzzz

dun cry dun cry dun cry dun cry.

yessss.

tml will be better.

argh!!