fucked up

got fucked by friend.
got fucked by people.
missed a show.
lost 80 bucks.
used 16 bucks.
its worth to do all these just to
have a walk with you,
see you,
feel you,
touch you,
talk to you,
smile to you.
but what i get at the end.
a message of
sorry.
and also a night of quietness.
i know you have your reason.
just give me some time calm myself down.
aih.
FUCK it.